The Anonymous Comment

Well, life is pretty much back to normal now….thank God.  We are loving the new place, and aside from me having to harass the kids to pick up after themselves, everything is running a lot smoother than before.  Being summer though, it is rather busy around here.  I try and get out with the kids at least once per week, and take them out to do something fun….I always feel guilty when they are sitting around the house while I work.  I remember when G was little and he was in daycare, and that made me feel better, as at least he was getting to play with friends and do fun things, play outside and even have the odd day trip.  Now they are at the age where they go out with their friends once and a while, but when I am at work, they are mostly just in the house…..

So, I have noticed that I have an anonymous reader…..I have had four comments posted that way, and I am thinking they are all from the same person?  Sounds like someone that can identify with me, and maybe even thinks a lot of the same way I do (so far), but maybe is still working out some of their own thoughts.  Well, whoever you are, I am glad you are enjoying so far, and please keep letting me know you are reading, or what your thoughts are….it took me a while to find the first few comments, as they get put into a ‘spam’ folder, but I have it all figured out now, lol.

Things with ‘my girl’ kinda finished now.  During all the chaos of my move and such, she ended up getting back together with her ex boyfriend, and I am not really a fan of that.  Then, as I was too busy to spend time with her, she actually started exchanging messages and even went and saw another Dom (male), and then emailed me to tell me that was the stupidest thing she has ever done, and wants to know how to fix it.  I told her there was no fix for that. 

Her:

“i should never of even spoke to him…..i thought he was a really nice guy spoke to him on a friend basis……..but still feel like a jack ...... about the whole thing... i wish i could take everything back……….i am terribly sorry…………..Ma'am will you please forgive my stupidity?................ Ma'am  i am really sorry. i hate disappointing you.... i really do…..is there anything i can do to fix this………..i know i cant erase the stupidity……and i know that i cant "fix" this so to speak i just want you to know that i am truly sorry for disappointing you and making you upset with me…….this is really the first time i have ever done something  SOOOOO stupid in my entire life...and i have done some pretty stupid crap”

Me:

“I am very disappointed in you, and the way this happened.... what did you want me to say? what did you think I was going to say?..........you want to pretend this did not happen….are you serious?  Or just nuts??...............there is no way to fix this.”

So, I guess that is the end of that….too bad, I kinda liked that girl, but she knew that would not go over well, and she has seen me get rid of others for even lesser offences, so that WAS rather stupid on her part.  Funny, her ears must be ringing, because she JUST messaged me as I finished typing this. 

I had a pretty good shopping week, I saved about $185 in ad matching and coupons, so that is a great week, IMO….it does take a long time though, that is for sure…..about four or even five hours here, to get it all done, and another few hours shopping….but even if you work that out, it is still worth the money, its double minimum wage in savings at least, lol.

Today is Sunday, so for the most part, that is my lazy day.  I do a few things on Sundays, like folding laundry, but that is about it….most Sundays anyway….if we go out for the day, then it is not too relaxing, but we do not do that more than monthly on a Sunday.  Next Sunday I am working, which I am normally VERY against (for myself, not everyone), but I took a shift for another girl so she could go away for the week, it’s the first one I have done in over a year, so I do not mind too much. 

However, most Sundays are like today….I wake up….I do all my morning stuff (wash face, brush teeth, etc), then I log online.  Usually by that time, D will have a hot tea ready for me, and will be making brunch.  Today we had bacon, eggs, toast and homefries.  YUM.   Then for the next couple hours, I have been hanging around online while D works around the house, right now I think he is hanging up things in Z’s room, then G wanted him to sew some pants.  After that, he will make dinner, and we will all eat together at the kitchen table.  After that, D usually cleans the kitchen and a few other things (he LOVES to clean, many times our nose and eyes are burning from bleach, his favorite), and then we will all sit around and watch some TV together….tonight is Big Brother….which we all love….and I think Z and I are gonna watch Brokeback Mountain together.  She has not seen that yet, but it is one of my favorite movies.  The whole concept and story of losing someone you love more than life, but just could not be with because of the reality of your own life haunts me.  I have lived through it, and when I saw that movie, I always thought that few people got that like me.  And those of us that do get it, or have lived through it, I am sure love that movie even more. 

Well, I guess that is all I have to say for today….I have so many topics I want to blog about, but right now, my mind seems to be blank….guess its cuz I am hungry…..have a great week readers….look forward to hearing from you!

Unknown Sister

IT"S OVER!!!!!!!!

Thank God!!  I do not know who would do that more than once unpurpose……

Everything went alright, no major problems and I am already all settled in and chillin.  The finally moving week was quite intense, I had a few fights with D (which is pretty uncommon) and was pissed off at A quite a bit, she was rather useless during this time.  But overall, went pretty good.  We worked for five straight days for about 16 hours a day, but that was all the moving over, cleaning, unpacking and even tacked my shelves in my WALK IN GROCERY PANTRY……I love that….in my last place, I had groceries, paper products and cleaning products stored all over the place.  Now, they are all in one area, and I can stock pile my most used items much easier.  Even Z, who has the job of putting away groceries once they are in the house, says she loves it, and is much happier to do her job now. 

On Thursday I took my kids out for lunch and a movie to celebrate that we were all done….that was my one day in over a month that I was not busy either moving or with work.  We went to the Mandarin to stuff our faces, and then to see Bad Teacher, which was an alright movie.  I love Justin Timberlake as an actor, he is SO funny and is just a natural talent.  Then we came home to watch Big Brother.  I love that show, it has to be one of my absolute favorites.  This year they brought back one of my favorite couples from the past, Jeff and Jordon…..they are SO cute…..cannot wait to see what this season has in store for the houseguests. 

Today is Saturday, and I plan to sit around my apartment all weekend and do a whole lot of nothing.  I wanna do some cleaning, and some couponing, but nothing too intense or stressful.  I really need to spend some time relaxing in front of my TV too.  I just need some downtime, plus my DVR is almost 100% full as I have not been able to watch much TV in the last month or so.   I just need to relax for a couple days after the brutal last few weeks I have had….and I am assuming gonna have a rough day Monday as well…..have been having an ongoing issue with my boss that I think is about to come to a head on Monday morning…..we will have to see. 

Things with the girl I was playing around with kinda died out now…..back to the drawing board I guess.  She wanted more than I could give her, and then she found it with someone else.  This has been an ongoing problem during the years we have known each other, but this time it will never go back again.  I am having one hell of a time finding the kind of play partner I want.  It’s almost like looking for a unicorn.  They either all want to get married or just have random sessions.  Neither of which interests me, I like something rather in between, but I can understand/see how a lot of people would not like that, so, I just take my time, and look around, not rushing into anything.  Sooner or later I will find someone I am compatible with again, I have found it before, a few times, and every time has been amazing, and well worth the wait.  I do not really have much free time right now, so I guess it’s for the better anyway.

As for now, just trying to get through life is challenge enough.  Until the next time…..

Unknown Sister

MOVING

That is right, I am moving.....for the first time in 15 years.....UGH....

I needed a bigger place.....my kids have been sharing a room for years now......and we are finally moving to a new place where they will have their own bedrooms, and I will have room to move through my living room forwards, instead of shimmy room on the side only....



Soooooooooooooooooooooo, here is the thing.....it is happening really fast.....I got the call on Thursday, and we will be moved in two weeks....so, as you can see, that will cut down drastically on my free time (not that I had a whole lot of it anyway).....so, this will be my last post until after Canada Day......then, I will make an effort to post more often.....


Until then readers, have a great June, sorry I will not be sharing it with you


Unknown Sister

Why can we not just fix all the wrongs done to our kids in life?????

AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH

What a month.  My poor son has had life chew him up and spit him out this month…..man, and now I am kinda nervous that something else bad might be coming his way….I will always try my best to protect him all I can, but I can only do so much…..

It started two weeks ago, when I got a call from a newspaper service that my son delivered.  It’s a rather long story, but the long and short of it is that they offered him a route that was NOT suitable for  a kid, or teenager, or anyone that was not driving the route, to be honest…..he tried his best for several months, but they called him that day, and fired him.  Needless to say, he was very upset.  He has become very used to having his own spending money, and he was also upset feeling that he failed this.  Two days later, I was able to get him another job with a different paper.  One problem down, several more to go.

Last week, a week after this, he was walking home from school, and his iPod slipped out of his hand, and hit the sidewalk, and cracked.  And I mean CRACKED, the screen was in a million pieces.  I felt terrible for him, and he felt horrible too, of course.  Those things are not cheap, I think he paid almost $400 for it, out of his own money, that he made, doing papers for hours and hours each week.  The next day, I call Apple, and get a total jerk on the phone, that basically tells me that even though he has had it less than 90 days, and BOUGHT A CASE THAT WAS SUPPOSE TO PROTECT IT FROM THIS VERY THING his only option was to buy another one, which they offer at half price cuz this happens so often.  Well, that did not sit well with me, so I looked around for an Apple store, as I heard they could do a screen repair.  The closest one was an hour from where we live.  Brilliant!  So, I make an appointment at the ‘Genius Bar’ for a week later….which was today…..anyway, back to his week.

On Monday, his basketball got stolen from right in his classroom, RIGHT AT THE TEACHER’S DESK.

Then Wednesday, they had a book fair at school, so he brought his wallet.  When it was time to go up to the book fair, his wallet was gone.  Someone went right into his backpack and stole it.  It contained $70 cash, his bank card, a future shop gift card, and a Dave and Buster’s card with about 1300 tickets on it.  Not to mention that was a new wallet that I just bought him for Christmas.  Unfortunately, He did not tell anyone while he was at school, as he was afraid that he would cause a problem, to come home and find it sitting on the table or something.   When I got home, he told me, and I emailed the school, the next morning I talked to the Principal, but of course, once it leaves the school, it’s too late to get it back.  I felt really terrible for him again. 

The next day, I told him to head to the bank to get a new bank card.  So he walked there after school.  I was at work.  He called me when he got home, to tell me that he got his new card, and went into the restaurant next door to the bank to get himself some dinner since I was sick and working late, and the kids were on their own for dinner.  On his walk home, he fell in the mud, got covered in it, and his dinner ended up all in it too.  My heart was just breaking for him at this point, I mean, how much can one 13 year old take??

Today, I went to the Apple store, and got his iPod replaced, for free (thank God), so, that is good.  The police came, and took a report about his wallet, and talked to his class.  But you all know, as well as I, that his wallet is gone forever.  He found his basketball today out in the field behind the school, so that is good.  And I got him some dinner on the way home, lol, just cause.

The thing too, is that my son is a really good kid.  He has worked his hardest his whole life.  Sure he messes up things every now and again like any kid, or any person in general, but overall, he is a really good kid.  He never gets in trouble at school, I have never had any major problems with him here at home, he is a good student, and hard worker and very loving and giving.  He gets up every morning at 5:30am to deliver papers six days a week, and plays on school sports teams, and maintains an A & B grade average....which is no small feat for a kid with ADHD.  He also does his chores at home without problems, and is very polite and well mannered (sometimes a little too much if you ask me).  Its just hard to see such a hard working kid get such a shit deal sometimes.  Esp all at once in a two week period like that.

Now, the only thing left that is bothering me, the paper route he has now is going good, but they called first thing this morning, and I have no idea why.  I know that they are affiliated with the one he got fired from, so I hope nothing weird is happening that way.  When I got home at noon, I called back, and then called another 50 times during the afternoon, and could not get hold of anyone!  Maddening.  For someone with an anxiety disorder like mine, it will never leave all weekend it will be in the forefront of my mind.  It could be any number of things they are calling about, but right away my mind goes to the worse one.  If I get any more bad news for my son, I do not think I will be able to handle it, never mind him.  Although, I do have the argument that the first route was SO not suitable, and he has been doing good on this one, also, he had a similar route for another paper that he did successfully for a year, until it self-dissolved……I am just so irritated that I could not get anyone on the phone the entire afternoon to put my mind to rest….oh well, I guess all I can do is hope for the best…..have a great long weekend everyone!

Unknown Sister

Obama, Osama, Harper and the girl.....what a week it has been......

Wow, its been like two weeks since I wrote a blog….this past week has been an INSANE week…..in fact, insane does not even begin to cover it…..I have had more problems and stress than I care to count for one week…..I am just hoping it’s over now…..tomorrow, I am doing as little as possible….I am gonna wake up, finish this blog….fuck around online, cook myself some brunch….watch some TV….go for a walk if it is nice…..cook dinner, have a shower, read for a while, and go to bed early…..YES, it’s gonna be a great day!  I just wanna forget this last eight days even happened…….

I went shopping over the weekend…..did alright, but nowhere near my best….saved about $85.00 between ad matching and coupons.  My two Jamaican guys think I am a nutball…..but they both love me best….so that is all that matters….lol.  It was another late night too, for some reason, it seems they only work late on shopping week…..O also told the girl that shopping with me is torture…..to which, I replied, of course, that torture was my specialty…..Hahahaha

The girl I speak about, is one that I have been training, off and on, for a few years now.  Because of her lack of experience, and the constant strain of illness and chaos that has been my life….and the fact that she always has had a secondary partner….it’s been more off than on.   As of late, it has been heating up a tad again….

She sells Epi Cure products.  I wanted to have a party last fall.  The rep I knew was having a hard time coming at the time I needed her.  Then I found out this girl sold it as well, so I booked the party with her instead…..all went well, and we have been talking more…..I have told her I do not care for her having secondary partners….I like to have several partners at once but am not a fan of sharing myself…..well, sometimes it’s fun, and sometimes ok but sometimes it just gets in the way….like with this girl.  Well, over the course of the last while, this girl has made some bad choices.  She left me waiting on her once, which was not that big a deal, esp since she was not the driver….but I do not like to be kept waiting, esp for slaves. 

However, the bigger mistake, by far, was outward disregard for my rules.  I have explained to her, like any others I am around that there is certain behavior I do not care for from a slave, that I find very unbecoming and rather inappropriate.  One of these is swearing.  I swear, a lot, maybe more than the average person.  But I am aware that in certain places, it is not appropriate.  That goes for slaves as well.  However they want to chat amongst themselves or whenever I am not around, I really could not care less, BUT I do not think it is appropriate to hear it coming from a slave’s mouth, so I do not want to hear it when I am around.  One night, we were chatting online, and she just totally disregarded this matter.  I was shocked to say the least, and this is when I realized that even if she was not mine, I needed to make sure she still remembered her place, or this was just going to snowball.   It would not be good for either of us, if I let it go so far that it caused problems.  As of now, she has written me out lines, and is doing a daily assignment until I see her next Friday to give her a more direct and swift punishment.  That should put the matter to rest, I do not think she will make the same mistake twice.  Once all that is done and over, I shall post some of her assignments for my readers to see.  

This girl really has no idea what she is in for.  She will not leave here without blood, sweat and tears.  I will make sure she understands what I expect and does not just do as she pleases with me again.  She is rather inexperienced, I think that that vast majority of her experience has been with me, and as I said earlier, we have not seen each other that much….so, what happens Friday will not be so much what I plan to give out.  It will more so depend on how much she can take……but I will make sure she suffers enough that she will not want to repeat this, and that she does not forget any time soon. 

One of the funniest parts of this is that her ex husband is also on fetlife and has read her notes and such, and just thinks it’s hilarious, he cannot stop laughing about it, and even offered to take photos for me. LOL    

Well, its Friday now, and I had the worse sleep ever…..stupid construction guys working on the balconies, first thing in the morning, when it was already suppose to be done……I was in bed until after 11am.  Mostly because I was being woken up every ten minutes to them working and/or talking, so the sleep was so broken it was crappy…..I had the STRANGEST dream too……

My sister is on her way to Ghana, Africa, right now as I type this.  She is going with 9 other people from her work for two weeks to teach in a school and work in an orphanage….she is an avid traveler and has been to every single continent in the world now after this trip.  I always worry when she is away, even though we are not close, I still love her and her family.  And she has two small children, and is the families breadwinner……travel makes me nervous, so I do not do it myself, but even her doing it is enough to cause me stress……good luck to her though, what an amazing experience and awesome thing to do.

It’s been a pretty big news week as well.  With our Canadian elections and Osama being killed.  Our election pissed me off to no end.  First off all, it upsets me that Canadians are so stupid to trust our country to someone like Harper.  WTF is wrong with us, guys??  This guy wants use to become the US, and while I love my sister and many other Americans, and while I love the states in general, and am glad we are right beside them, I do NOT want to be them.  If I wanted to be American, I would move to the states, so I do not need the states coming here…..this guy wants more or bigger prisons, he wants to take away gay rights, and buy fighter jets…..and lock up pot smokers……and fuck us all up the ass as hard as possible while not using lube to save on costs, WTF people???    I am not the only one upset either….let me share with you a few of my favorite status messages from the night of the election from facebook,……

Congrats, Canada; you are an idiot. Watch what happens next..

~Conservatives are like Nickelback. I don't know anyone who likes them but they always seem to do well.~

every Canadian should protest till Harper is behind the bars he supports so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

"Harper again people... seriously???" "Do you need him to come to your house and rob you, before you realize he's a crook?" lol...

Welcome, Canada, to the United States of America. Idiots...

I just knew the pale zombie with Lego hair would win again....

The United States are liberal and Canada is conservative? Yeah definitely didn't see that coming.

As you can see, I am far from the last person upset about this.  Not only am I upset that this nutball has another four years to fuck us all over, but I never realized until this election, how messed up our voting system is…..how is it possible that we have a MAJORITY government that only 39% of us voted for?  That in itself is fucking retarded…..seriously…..it would take too long to explain our voting system here to a non Canadian, but it’s stupid.   The long and short of it is this, each city votes in a MP, and then for every seat or MP that party wins, its another vote for the Prime Minister, basically.  So, to take it into small numbers to understand, the vote would look like this:

City A has 4 residents, 2 vote CON, 1 votes LIB, and 1 votes NDP….giving CON 1 seat.

City B has 5 residents, 3 vote CON, 1 votes LIB, and 1 votes NDP…..giving CON 1 seat.

City C is bigger, and has 20 residents, 5 vote CON, 3 vote LIB and 12 vote NDP….giving NDP 1 seat. 

As you can see, NDP got 14 out of 29 votes, and CON only received 10 out of the 29 votes, but because CON won two of the three seats, there is a CON majority, and a CON Prime Minister…..fucking stupid…..there is something wrong with our system when we have a majority government that does NOT represent a majority of Canadians……

The next major news story this week is the demise of bin Laden.  This coverage has been bothering me as well…..I think it is great that we got him, and I do not disagree with them killing him, he was dangerous, and needed to be stopped….period.

What does bother me, however, is all the after effect.  First of all, as a Christian, I do not celebrate ANYONE’s death.  Secondly, do you all really think it is wise to start making a big song and dance out of the whole thing?  Do you not think there is not a bunch of other nut cases dying to take his place?  We had to get him, we got him, now shut up about it.  Let’s not make a mockery of this whole situation.  Let’s not forget the real issue at hand which is those 3000+ people that lost their lives almost ten years ago, let us not forget that is who it is really about.  And as far as releasing the photos of the body, I think Obama made the right choice.  The media is not entitled to everything, and again, do you not think that might piss someone off?  Also, I do not want my children seeing that, and I do not want anyone else’s children seeing that either…..why do we need to see that??  And for those saying that perhaps Obama is lying, I think that is so stupid, I HAVE to reply.  bin Laden’s favorite thing to do all these years was letting out tapes about how stupid the US is….do you think Obama would take that chance, so a tape could be released next week?? Really?  REALLY?? 

Of course, the one thing I did not talk about yet was the Royal Wedding….and you know why….cuz I DON’T FUCKING CARE.  Seriously, people all over the world get married every single day…..get over it…..it’s not like William even did anything to be famous, he was just born into it, and Kate slept her way into it, big fucking deal.  I will say though, that I would have just been indifferent to the whole thing, except for the fact that the day before the wedding, over 300 people died in the US from tornados, and you could not find coverage for that to save your life.  Really CNN?  REALLY??  Shame.

Well that is all for now, dear readers, I do hope you enjoyed my rants and stories this time along…..

 Unknown Sister

Another blog full of random topics

What a week, what a week.  Life is never boring around here, that is for sure.   Tonight I am gonna try and take it easy a bit.  I went out with A for lunch today, as we were both off work, so tonight I am just gonna make dinner, and watch a few shows, while I get my shopping list (ad matching) ready for the weekend.  I am gonna have to pick up a few Easter treats for the kids this weekend too, as I will go shopping after Easter morning next time.  I cannot believe that Easter is so close!  Easter is my favorite holiday of all!  This whole time of year, I just LOVE it.  I know that most people get like this over Christmas, and not too many people even see the big deal in Easter, but I am kinda the other way.  Christmas is nice and all, but it’s WAY too much of a commercialized spectacle.   Too many people forget that it is about the birth of Christ.  And if you are not a Christian, what the hell are you even celebrating??  Drives me batty.  Anyway, my point is, I LOVE Easter, we always have a huge celebration, and love to indulge in all those Lenten sacrifices that we have missed for the last 40 days.  This year seems to be a tad quiet, some years we have lots of people over, sometimes it just us.  So, this year, it will be me, my partner (D), the two kids, and then my second partner (O), and his two kids…..should be a nice quiet family holiday.  Must buy a turkey and some goat this weekend for Easter dinner, and supplies for a nice dessert fondue.  O calls himself my second husband (even though I am not married to anyone, and am gay)…so that is why I called him my second partner here.  He does everything for me, does things for my kids, fixes things, takes me out…..he just does not get bedroom benefits, LOL.  He is a pretty awesome guy though.  He is one of my best friends.  My Brethren.

I only watched one movie this past week.  I am a film buff for sure, I LOVE movies, and try and get at least one a week in, but don’t always have time.  I watched ‘The Experiment’ on Sunday.  It was a pretty good movie.  Great cast, good story.  Loosely based on the Stanford Experiments.  If you don’t know what that is, read here:

 Wiki Article

Video 

The movie starred Adrien Brody, Forest Whitaker, Maggie Grace, Fisher Stevens and Ethan Cohn.  It was a remake of a German film called ‘Das Experiment’.  Well worth the watch....esp if you are into either prison movies as a pastime, or prison scenes as a fetish. 

I am hoping to catch a couple more movies in the upcoming weeks, like Scream 4, Insidious, and maybe even Arthur.  I am hoping to see one over the weekend, and perhaps another one Tuesday night (cheap night, only $4.25 a movie).....

Prison scenes can be very interesting in movies.  I have never done one in real life, per se, but I do like interrogation at times as well.  It’s strange, cuz I would say that I don’t like role play, but this is different, its not like I am pretending to be someone I am not....I am just setting my slave up for something.....I don’t dress in a uniform or anything, that is what I think is silly. 

In the next week or so, I am going to have a session with a girl I have been playing with on and off for several years.  I am not in a ‘relationship’ with her, but I do see her from time to time.....mostly for a BDSM session....once in a while for an EpiCure party, LOL.  she got herself into some trouble with me, some pretty serious trouble, she has never done that before.  I am chatting with her now, she is having a hard time with the whole situation.  her ex husband thinks its great, he is enjoying know that she is in big trouble.  Sounds like he needs some help with his slave as well.  I don’t mind mentoring a fellow Dom/me, we all have to learn somewhere.  Besides, I have done it a few times, and it can be kinda fun too.....

Well, I guess that is about all for tonight, it is rather late, and I still want to have a bite to eat and finish watching Parenthood.  I know these blogs are kinda random, but I am hoping that is why some of you love it.....the next few blogs you have to look forward to are, my savings on this weekend’s shopping trip, my session with that girl, and if I decide to pick up mentoring her ex, and Easter Sunday, a big celebration.......and with that, I will leave you with a Top Ten, since I did not make it one Tuesday.....

Top Ten Websites I Use

Facebook

Fetlife

Youtube

Wikipedia

CNN

Blogger

Save.ca

Brandsaver.ca

Websaver.ca

GoCoupons.ca

BTW, I just want to point out for those of you that are confused, and I know you are out there....it IS possible to be religious AND kinky.  My relationship with God is personal, and has nothing to do with my sex life.  I LOVE my God, and I love Jesus Christ.  I am a sexual person, and I don’t think God would have made something so beautiful if we were not supposed to enjoy it.  I am not hurting anyone (unless they allow me to, lol), and everything is between two loving, consenting adults.  

Unknown Sister

What's up out there? Top Ten Tuesday....

Hello again out there.....

This last week has been eventful, but fun.  Saturday I had a poker party for my birthday, and it was much fun.  Although, most of my friends run on CP time (coloured people time), so even though I said dinner at 6pm, I still had people arriving up to 8pm.  We had a bite to eat, well, a few bites, lol...and smoked a couple of blunts, and played a few games of cards.  My one friend’s DIL even made me cupcakes decorated like the Italia flag!  That made my night.  I was slightly worried beforehand, as there was tons of drama the day or two before the party, lasting right up to the afternoon of, but once we got started, it was all smooth sailing, thank God.  This is the group of people I call my ghetto framily. Framily means, more than friends, not quite family.  Although, there are a few I would consider straight up family. 

I don’t have much natural family.  I have two children, one birth child, and one adopted.  I have one sister that I speak with, but she lives far into the states, and we are not all that close.  I have three other siblings, but I don’t know, or care to know, where they are.  That is a topic for another blog.  Both my parents are deceased, my father way too soon, my mother, not soon enough.  I have some family that lives pretty close to me, one city over, but my mother made sure she killed that relationship before she died.  I chat with one or two of them on facebook from time to time, but that is about it.  The framily I  have is way closer to me than those.  Sometimes I feel pretty alone in the world.  Most times, I love to be alone, but the world is a big place.  I have a partner, that is wonderful, but we have a complicated relationship. In this blog, I call him D2.  He would do anything for me, as I would him, and he listens very well, lol.  He says he cannot live without me and even though I identify as a lesbian, I love him very much, just not that way he wants.....

In the last few years, I have lost a few friends as well, one I truly miss, but she hurt me deeply.  The other four, I think my life is easier and less stressful without and although at times I miss them for certain things they did, overall, I do not regret for ten seconds they are gone.   I also have several friends left from grade school.  You don’t see that too often, but I have about five that I talk to on a regular basis and another five or so I see a few times a year.  I have one close friend that I have been through lots with, I call her R.  I love her like a sister.  I want to send her a card this week telling her how much I love her and miss her.  We have had two totally different lives, in every way you can think, but that never torn us apart. 

I think this week I will also write a letter to Buju.  I know he probably gets tons a day, but given his current situation, he doesn’t have much else to do.  I hope he is keeping well.  I know its kinda strange to be so invested in someone I don’t actually know, but his music has been with me for the last 15+ years, and at times, has carried me through a lot. 

Well, I must get on with my day, I have a few jobs I want to do, before going to the movies tonight with my kids, to see Hall Pass.  On that note, I will leave you with this weeks Top Ten Tuesday:

Top Ten Books I Love

The Book Of Negroes

Gone, But Not Forgotten

Exit To Eden

Here’s The Deal, Don’t Touch Me

The Green Mile

A Child Called “It”

Michelle Remembers

The Perfect Victim

Slow Death

Are You There Alone?: The Unspeakable Crime of Andrea Yates

Unknown Sister